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yesterday was still.. a blank page for me.
wonder around where should i begin back life .. neh excuses, huuu.
Until after megrib then only i found my way bck, weeeeaaahuuuuuu!
Its the matter how you manage to mend things to usual, manage to organize things bck to normal and the feeling was like..the new me.
Eh eh i dont like the new me inside .. i wnt bck the old me, jst the way i am yg selalu serabut tanpa mempedulikan org sekeliling.
Apa-apa sajalah yang kau merepek Madi.

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Dalam minda nieh tgh kusut musut busut .. i still make myself available for my dearest - lending ears, shoulder to lean on, sharing laughs, giving thoughts..which sometimes never knw the limits. Glad to have them in whole simple & humble world life ini, sgt kiut. Recall bck in mtrx course .. aku rs bermula di situ, aku mcm jadi good advisor (gasak kau perasan gila) and good listener (mungkin).

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Waktu tgh indction kol 1230tghmlm pon masih mendapat call aduan mencerita mslh rumahtangga (ok tipu) .. aku mamai² dh minum ubt batuk pon layankan lahhh. Blk indction .. mendapat 4 aduan berbeza, tapi kisah yang sama - tentang kehidupan. Aku rs aku ada sket amek bakat mak aku kot, mak aku is the best woman in universe, mmg mak terbaik lah (bg aku, huuu). Sbb dgn slamber, mcm mcm benda aku buleh share (dlu buleh share topap) dgn dia, tak kesah la kesah ko gado dgn bf ke, kesah ko menyampah dgn rakan sepejabat ke, kesah ko nk kuruskan badan ke, and the best part is kesah 'bulan ni saya perlu lebih peruntukan kewangan'. And still, she jst the way she is, always and never fails to put all the positive side into ME! Datang laa cita mslah mcmana pon, she always be the positive one, terbaek lah mak! Tp skang aku limitkn cerita aku pada mak, huuuuu.
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So i applied the same approach jst like mum did, whenever friends share their stories of life, i'll put myslf in neutral way and deliver the positive thought..seikhlas buah pimikiran ini selagi boleh.

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Tp whenever i feel down, aku kadang² tak dpt apply benda yg sama dgn apa yg aku cakap, hahahahaha sengal. Dan aku perlu org utk bgtau aku buat itu ini, haishhh! Ada org peduli ke kalau kau down?
Saat ni aku rs perlu seseorg utk share apa yg aku pendamkan nieh .. tp sapa lah nk dgr apa yg aku nk cakapkan.

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Jadi benarlah kata mak, berkawan itu biarlah berpada. Rs jauh hati mcm nieh tak pasti cara sebaiknya utk dikongsi dgn org lain, tp padaNya juga tmpt mengadu... Bagi aku klu dh rs jauh hati tuu, maka bawak laaa hati tu pegi main lagi jauhhhh, ngeeeeeeheeee!

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Yes, i am ready to make a move.. i like to move it move it, we like to move it move it.
Till then, tschuss!
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